April 11, 2009

You know those bratwurst sausage like things??

Um, ya. That would be my feet right now.
I must warn you now. I am NOT in the greatest of moods.
Read on, at your own risk, you've been warned.

I do not accept any responsibility of how you'll feel when your done reading my BS

So Gary and I spent almost 4 hours in the Emergency Room last night.
My feet have swollen to Ripley's Believe it or Not proportions.
Yes, your right. They look gross. I do NOT enjoy having bratwurst for feet.
Now, don't do that. Don't say, "Oh Lori, it could always be worse" kind of chastising.

I know that already, and surprisingly to all, It COULD be worse. Oh hell yes, it could.

Snap, Snap: Back to bratwurst & sausage like images.

The doctors cannot figure out WHY on earth I've gained 11 pounds in ONE week.
35 pounds in 6 weeks. Thank the good Lord, that I'm tall....whew, *wipes sweat off brow*
They took me off the Cymbalta, it wasnt really working anyhow....
Im in constant pain daily. Its really hard on your body , your emotions and your psyche to
feel like chit every day.

Its sorta like having the flu every day when you have Lupus and/or Fibromyalgia.

I know alot of people who have what I have, can relate.
I guess the key is LEARNING how to live in a new body that doesnt function like it used to.
Learning that you cannot make plans, because any moment you can get a flare up, and end up in bed or on the couch for a week at a time.

Talk about being productive, lol.....oh yah, that would be me.

The ER Doc, asked me last night if I was working.
I said, yes, but at home and on my torch. I told him, if I had a job outside my house, I'd be
fired. Oh yah, fired, lol....and probably quickly.
They tell me Im eligible for Disability, but I dont want to go that route.
I want to sculpt again and survive on my Art.

Art is my passion.
Art is the knot in my brain that never comes untied.
Its a part of my blood, a part of my soul.
I will be an Artist even if I'm not sculpting right now.....I will be an Artist no matter WHAT
I do, or if I cant do it for another year.

Nothing is imPOSSUMable.....(* see post below this one with the Possum*)
Now that I got my complaining out of my way, I'm going to take some more
Lasix so I can pee my brains out all day.

What fun.
I just cant wait, can you?

April 8, 2009

Nothing is imPOSSUMable!!!!!

YuppO, you heard right.
Nothing is impossumable.
I know sometimes, that we as humans stand in our own shadow and then we wonder why its dark??
Don't stand in your own shadow too long, its lonely & unproductive there. Find your light.
Remember: You are the only person that writes the story of YOUR life - one moment at a time.

Your creating the moment your living in right now.
Just as you will create the next moment. And the moment after that.
You have soo much power over your life, and as humans, we lose sight over that concept.
Picture an hourglass.
Depending where you are in your life, the sand of time continues to flow.
No matter what we do to change it. Time moves forward.
The more sand that has flowed, the clearer the hourglass will become.
Before I leave you to ponder, on that note....you MUST remember to value yourself in this lifetime.
This hourglass (YOUR Hourglass) of life, we carry with us.
The sand will still flow, but will you??
Until you value yourself, you will not value your time.
Until you value your time, you will not do anything with it.
As for the Possum, I cannot take any credit for the adorable idea.
Maria from Garden Path Beads makes them soo much better, trust me, but
they are just too daggummed cute!!
I can take credit for the imPOSSUMable side note, teehee....
So....go on....figure out how clear your hourglass is....
and yes, you can do the imPOSSUMable!
Why? Because I believe in you.
Now.....all you need to do is believe in yourself.

April 2, 2009

Cool Warmth

Originally uploaded by lorinicolls

I have always loved this bead....
I may even try to reproduce this style,
I really love how warm the orange/red is,
compared to the icy cool blue.